I was always a highly sensitive, trusting, and vulnerable person. A big part of healing my own story is releasing my victim mentality and taking back my power. Diagnosed with C-PTSD, the events of my life have fuelled my fire regarding the connection between early abuse/ neglect/ trauma (especially emotional which is often overlooked) and mental/ spiritual sickness (.. and the psycho/spiritual healing link).
I wrote this out this morning as I head off to be heard by a couple of doctors in the private mental health field. Wish me luck :o)
There comes a point when you realize you are not a victim. Not a victim to your childhood, to your partner, to society, to your spiritual emergency, to the medical/ mental health system, or to your life.. You’ve put your own puzzle pieces together and can clearly see the bigger picture. You can step outside the crazy making system. Step away from the old dynamics and power plays. You can now observe people and interactions rather than react thus saving your time and energy. Observing the dynamics without fear and without getting caught up in the drama is fascinating. You hold no judgment of others, you hold no fear… You see the power plays everywhere, whether on a small scale or on a large scale and you accept. You can radically accept. You see aggressors, rescuers and victims all feeding off each other and never taking personal responsibility, often blind to their own part in the dysfunction. You see individuals hiding from their shadows, owned by their fears. Again never taking responsibility. You see history repeating. But you have stopped your part in the cycle and you know that is all that really matters. You now have inner peace, but are not passive… You have clarity, you have energy. You have a voice and you know how to use it. .